Searching for love- Day 12

•July 11, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Well I m feeling good today, woke up earlier than usual, litening to pyramid Charice, she is gorgeous, checked my maıl and heading out ,wont be back for couple days…What else have I done? Hmm complicated, my heads full of thoughts,Im not even sure If I should write this down =))) You can lose so much when your looking for love, which means I get really stupid if I like someone, pretty illusional when it comes to love,on the other hand I know its not going anywhere, end of the road is full of darkness and confusion, If I dont get rid of this soon, I wont need to search for it but, ıs ıt what I really want ? Just after 12 days of search I found people who are real candidates but I want it all, it would be stupid to give up at thi point lol once I started Ill come back here and tell u Im happily in love…ugh only ıf I could =D Do u love smeone? ıf u do who ? and why? I believe its astrological loll and btw I found sme amazing youtube videos for you to watch, this one weirdo kid cracks me up he is ssooooo funny loll LOVE YOU ALL XOXO

gokce P.

Searching for love- Day 3

•July 1, 2010 • Leave a Comment

ok sooo wtf…ıts been the weirdest day since like ıdk… nthing too weırd happened but I was stıll ın a very awkward mood, like those times you cant recognize who you are? I couldnt even finish my shoots, plus I studied ,which is weird cuz I dont like that ,at all… =) so maybe ıts an astrological awkverdness or smethng, maybe everythings upside down, I know the tıtles searching for love; Im not even sure I feel a glimpse of love today, let alone search for it. Its a huge gap and emptiness Im feeling, replacing yesterdays passion waves…hope it passes soon enough cuz I m a major ın love addict,I lıve and breathe for love I hope I dont turn asexual or gay or anythng else cuz I couldnt fınd anythng attractive today haha Do you feel like that? Plus on my mind there was much deeper things like my future , psychic powers and stuff, had colorful and irritating dreams again…again.. uhh… I promised myself to write here everyday, Ill keep that promise because I know Itll help to see the progress day by day, going back and reading it, not everyhtng ofcourse cuz most are pg13 and haha inappropriate to write down but I have also another diary thing on my laptop, I dont write my stuff like – dear diary bla bla bla lol I jump right on the subject ;)   oh well Im hungry so Ill wrıte some other tıme soon, prob tomorrow muah love ya

xoxo

Searching for Love- Day 2

•June 30, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Gogo didnt find love today… I def looked for it, there was this ex bf of mine, went to chill at his place with sme friends… I certainly dont love him, not that I care if he loves me anyways… we say these a lot. ok so we ordered some pizza and it was actually veryyy boring =) hate to say, he is cute yea but oh well maybe Ill never find love, it was the wrong thing to actually go there, he talked about how women always tell the sme stuff about sex 1 ‘ oh I dont have sex cuz I stıll dont know you, 2 ‘ oh ı cant have sex wıth you cuz you arent my bf  etc and etc , I told hım thats completely FUCKNG NORMAL ,why dont men try to understand women are creatures of love? maybe men should stop tellıng us we r exactly the same, we have only one thıng ın common we WANT to be loved. thats about ıt, some of us torture longer,some of us  get used , both of them we prefer depends on our psychology and mood, but we can love you, yes we can even if ur very ugly…lol women tend to be blinded once theyre under the spell its hard to break, we r def less visual than men …they choose more with  animal instincts, we choose rationally, well…we r animals too=) cant say Im not superficial at times =) anyways, it was another day without love, there were couple other people on my mind that called me, lets call them MR A. and MR E. they seem interested and interesting but Im not sure of anything yet, its hard to trust men and myself =) another day without love…let me know if u find it before me, id like to know and pray for me lolll jk but u could do that hehe Ill let you know wenever I can, keep you updated if something specific touches my heart… muah xoxo

SEARCHING LOVE- GOGO PSYCHE

•June 29, 2010 • Leave a Comment

? WEN ? WHO ?

wers my luver

OK…Gogo has a problem

•February 23, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Since  I havent checked my blog for so long, I realized it needs to be updated much more often; plus some of my fav. videos online on metacafe are gone, they were ereased somehow ? =( damn… 

Anyways I though it would be a perfect idea to turn this blog into a diary, but for a few couple weeks it wont be possible cuz at home I dont have wireless connection ugh! I sometimes hate technology, dreaming about the times when people sent each other romantic mails, actual hand written stuff that people took time to write down…its much more romantic and valuable but oh well we’ll have to get used to this unromantic practical ways of communication… I found the problem, everything in our world is so easy, so easy to access… I have so much left to tell, wait for March!

LOVE YA

Gokce PAZARBAS

Forgiving your enemies

•November 18, 2009 • Leave a Comment

It’s very hard to forgive our enemies, especially if what they do against us is very serious and the damage caused cannot be corrected. Sometimes, it’s hard to forgive even something insignificant.

However, your peace does not depend on other people’s behaviour. You will keep your balance and be calm in any situation, so that you don’t lose your peace or do anything worse against your enemies in trying to get your revenge.

The idea of revenge is totally absurd and based on human evil. The pleasure to punish our enemies is a demonstration of craziness since we should not desire to see anyone suffering, even if it is our worst enemy. Many people disagree with this concept because they believe that the pleasure of seeing their enemies suffer is a logical pleasure, after being their victims. But it is not, because this is absurd reasoning.

Would you like to take the revenge of a lion if it killed someone you loved? No, because you know that a wild animal has no notion of its actions. This is the way you have to consider murderers and all those who attack you and make you suffer. They act like animals because they are really very wild animals. Human conscience’s biggest part is totally wild and violent. So, there is no meaning in desiring revenge.

People who feel injured cannot forgive their enemies, but they have to understand that it’s not their fault if they cannot control their behaviour and respect other human beings. At a certain point of their lives, they could have prevented the crazy content from dominating their conscience, but they didn’t fight against its invasion because they didn’t know how to. This is very common-most people are very far from balance and wisdom…

The comprehension one acquires after analysing all points of existence shows that there is no meaning in hatred. Even those who commit terrible crimes should be forgiven because they have no control over their behaviour. They require psychotherapy since they are dominated by the wild part of their conscience, which is very violent and evil.

The human being evolved too little in comparison with the part of ones conscience that still remains in a primitive condition. One easily looses the human, sensible and sensitive part of one’s conscience, becoming a victim of one’s primitive conscience. Each cruel murderer is a victim of his or her evil side. We must forgive and have mercy on them, instead of hating them for their actions. They cannot control or understand the meaning of their actions, even though they give us the impression that they know very well what they are doing.

The murderer’s acts are controlled by his or her primitive conscience, which is an actor and pretends that it is human, whereas it is actually evil. The murderers are hypnotized by their wild side, that’s why everything they do is inhuman, even though they seem to be the same human being they were before the invasion of the wild content into the human part of their conscience.

At this stage of domination, the wild conscience can oblige them do anything, even a crime against the people they love, because they are not themselves. Their personality was damaged and they became robots, without feelings.

If we can understand this sad reality, we can also understand that we would only feel sad, but never hate people who are dominated by their evil wild side because they become their own victims. They only suffer while they cause suffering to others and the pleasure they feel when they kill is totally crazy. It’s a distorted reaction that reflects their mental illness.

The same thing happens even when they don’t kill us with arms, but with their cruel and inconsequent actions or with their indifference to our pain, by filling our life with terror. We must forgive them and have pity on them because they do not have a human behaviour. They are dominated by the worst side of their psychic sphere and, therefore, need help.

Would you hate and want to take revenge on a schizophrenic who lives in a clinic on heavy medication daily so that he may stop wanting to kill everyone?

You have to consider people who do anything against you as you consider crazy people who have serious psychic diseases because even the minimum evil is already too much poison for one’s soul.

Have only pity on your enemies and always forgive them when they do something horrible against you because they’ll suffer much more than you did, when they understand the meaning of their actions. Moreover, they already suffer very much because they have lost their human side and, with it, their goodness, their peace of mind and their future, because they can only get lost in the labyrinth of craziness they are in now. Without the necessary therapy, people who started losing their human conscience and doing crazy and harmful things against others cannot recuperate their human conscience.

Twilight Saga :New Moon

•November 18, 2009 • Leave a Comment

 

If you want to watch new moon immediately after its viewed online, you should go directly to watch-movies.net

which is my number one preference when I chose to watch online, YOU DONT HAVE TO DOWNLOAD ANYTHING,plus

its 100 percent free=)

I JUST HEARD THAT our twilight charachters became lovers in real life also =) which explains the chemistry lol Im so excited for the movie , cant wait  till it is 11.20.2009 ; This friday! I know you cant wai too=)

Love ya

GP.

XOXOX

Yet another e-motional turmoil

•November 14, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Umm…some people fail to learn from their mistakes; like me…

Walking in a life of tests and dangerous dating deals, open relationships leading me to more and more insecurities,I feel so stuck… lol not that I blame anyone for it, unless I change my mind about certain stuff about what I want, truly want,like being in an honest long-term loving relationship, I know soon IT WILL come to me…but what I cant understand ıs how come I always end up in conflicts like changing locations or changing schools right before I think I land on love? Lets say ıf I do fınd someone ın few weeks…how will it ever work? Or should I close my feelings( lıke thats possible..=) and my eyes in the social world, I dont love easily anyways, once I felt like a cold-hearted creature now Im really getting back to my true softer core…The only thing missing is a great man, great love,passion and honesty…

 

STAY TUNED XOXO

 

I Ching works!

•October 20, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I recently watched this scary but very interesting documentary about 2012, I was totally convined that it will be the end, 21 december 2012… In the documentary it also talked about a very old book of fortune -guidence  I must say, came to our day 5000 years ago and according to a scientist who made a graphic of the 64 possiblities it also ended on the date 21 december 2012 and fit to all the other historical events that came along which was pretty convincing so I went to my favourite book store and got me an I-Ching book, I quickly learned the 3 coins method which Ill explain to you soon below, I tried it and it definately works…My dad confirmed it, not only the answers are weirdly adiquete; the interpretation part is like mind-blowingly true and lightning…Some of the answers I knew but I didnt wanna face but Bamm, I Ching tells u…You shouldnt look at it as fortune telling tough, our wise ancestors from Asia apparently were more experienced about pure human nature and some weird intelligence they wrote this guidence book , I definetely offer all of you to atleast try it.This is enough of  comment, let me show you what it really is =)

The text of the I Ching is a set of oracular statements represented by 64 sets of six lines each called hexagrams (卦 guà). Each hexagram is a figure composed of six stacked horizontal lines (爻 yáo), each line is either Yang (an unbroken, or solid line), or Yin (broken, an open line with a gap in the center). With six such lines stacked from bottom to top there are 26 or 64 possible combinations, and thus 64 hexagrams represented.

Each hexagram represents a description of a state or process. When a hexagram is cast using one of the traditional processes of divination with I Ching, each of the yin or yang lines will be indicated as either moving (that is, changing), or fixed (that is, unchanging). Moving (also sometimes called “old”, or “unstable”) lines will change to their opposites, that is “young” lines of the other type—old yang becoming young yin, and old yin becoming young yang.

 

the six individual lines are by: the Duke of Kâu.

2012-Will we all die?

•October 18, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Im currently researching every material both online and offline and making new videos about our blurry future, if the doomsday is really a scientific fact ; which already started to look like it, the future polar shift possibility threatining our world, then we should totally start worrying about the last 3 years of our lives…

Keep checking the blog

Videos up in few days

xoxo

Gokce Pazarbas

 
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